I haven't been on here in awhile cause I've been trying to get my life back in order. Neinty percent of my nausea and tiredness is gone. I've been trying to get my house back in order, which is not an easy task at all...Anyways, that's what's been going on, and now off to my venting...
In the last 48hrs I've had about 9 hours of sleep, maybe ten including my nap yesterday. There is no way on earth I can happily run on that little sleep. I am so sick of people who say they understand how I feel when they have people who babysit their kids and husbands who let them get rest when they need it. I don't have that luxury!!! Yesterday morning I tried to get Phil up around 9am so that I could go back to bed. Well, he rolled around till almost ten and then there wasn't time for me to nap. This morning after only a few hours of sleep and then being up with Makenzie since 6am I was DONE. I tried to wake him up at 8:40 and of course he didn't get up till around 10 again. Then when he tries to give me a hug he wonders why I am so mad. I don't think he understands how hard it is to run on such little sleep. Yeah I know he needed his sleep since he has to work tonight, but I am 100% exausted. I have not gotten more than 2hrs of sleep at one time in a few days. Sometimes my sleep is broken up in 5-10min intervals. That does not let your body rest at all!! The entire family was shocked that I chose not to attend church this morning. I really did want to go, but I think sleep is going to do more for my soul right now than church will...
Liz and Lilly arrive today as well. They are supposed to be sleeping in Makenzie's room. As of this morning you still couldn't see her floor. I told her to pick up all the clothes and she took them and put them in the walkway in the livingroom. So now I have a whole nother mess to deal with besides doing dishes and vaccuuming. I know Liz doesn't care about the house, but I HAVE to do these things. There is no way I am letting a baby in the house to discover the kids small toys or crumbs. I MUST get these things done. Oh yeah, and somehow my playpen got this huge nasty stain in my mom's basement and so now I have to clean that also. Plus clean out the suburban before going to the airport...And to think I also want to get a nap before going to the airport...how is that possible??? I need to leave home in 3hrs.
About Me
- mjrowe
- I am a stay at home mom. I have three beautiful children. Between our three children we deal with some medical issues. While none of them are severe disabilities, we definitely have special needs that need dealt with around our home on a daily basis. Things we deal with are: Sensory Processing Disorder, Convergence Insufficiency, Hemihypertrophy, Food Allergies, and Asthma. Our lives can be challenging, exhausting, rewarding, fun, and a huge blessing, sometimes all in the same day! Life seems to be ever changing around our home. Just when I think I have things figured out and running smooth, something changes and life gets turned upside down again. In this blog, you will find raw honesty. That's just who I am. I don't hold back. When I want to write, I lay it all out, good and bad alike.
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