baby shower

Today Makenzie said that she wants to have a baby shower for her new baby she bought at a garage sale. I asked where she learned about baby showers. She said from tv. Then she said that she wants to have a shower for her baby and then my new baby...No one bothered to throw one for Nick, so how am I to know if I will get one for Makayla? Especially since we barely have any family out here. I didn't even get one when we had tons of family around!!! All I got told was "I don't have time to plan." "You shouldn't need gifts since you had a kid a couple years ago" and other things along those lines. I don't think anyone truly understands how awful it made me feel that no one celebrated the birth of my son, and that he has 4 empty pages in his baby book because of it. If someone does throw me a shower for Makayla then I won't have to go through the agony of leaving her pages blank. However years down the line I will be faced with the question of "Why were the girls thrown baby showers but I wasn't?" It breaks my heart to even think about it. He is such a special little boy and his birth should have been celebrated with a party just like everyone else. I wish I could go back in time and throw a party of my own. However, I know that I was not in any sort of state to do that since it took me so long to recover from the tearing and tail bone injury I endured while in labor with him.